The Lens

Ever feel in a situation when someone or something triggers you, that gives you all these different heart-crushing feelings? It's not the time to act, it's time to explore internally. There is some root of yours not being met. Something your heart is seeking which it's sure it needs. And the pain of it has a grip around your whole being.

Those experiences are telling if we allow them to be. When you're in that much pain, you've hit something deep, some kind of "original wound". Nothing external would solve this kind of pain, although we are usually convinced otherwise - if only I could get this person to understand my point of view, I'd feel better; If only I'd get an apology, the heartache would subside.

The only possibility for peace lies within you in these instances. You're going to have to figure out what this pain is about. Figure out why your heart feels it needs whatever it's seeking: approval, affirmation, recognition, realization, reassurance that you're lovable. You have to give those things to yourself. When you put the key to your peace and happiness somewhere outside yourself, you make yourself powerless.

And a reality of life is that we'll all be misunderstood and rejected at times. Sometimes a person is going to look at you through their own particular lens, and that lens may truly throw off the picture. Or maybe they're seeing you perfectly clearly. Trying to wipe off someone else's lens is a waste of your time and energy, and it's not your job, it's theirs. Maybe for them the lens is perfect. Or it's as clear as it's going to get for now. It doesn't matter because they don't have to live in your head; you do. As long as you're doing everything you can to wipe off your own lenses, to see things as they are, and you know you're coming from a place of love, you won't have any trouble facing that mirror. When you heal yourself, you'll find you can let go of the story - the original story, and the current one that caused you to revisit some very old stuff. Holding on to the stories will beat you down and use up a ton of your energy. Dropping the stories frees you and opens you to the possibility of now. And now has limitless potential. Now could be full of love. The work of healing those very deep woulds is exhausting.